I feel compelled, as I often do at the end of the year, to reflect on the previous year and review what I learned. The problem I usually have is that of short-term/long-term memory. Recent events are more cogent for me. But alas, I will do my best.
In general terms:
I learned I'm not as diligent at writing as I used to be. And i just can't seem to get much better, or more diligent.
I've learned to let go--rather, I've gotten better at it.
I've learned I need to work on getting beyond duality and the ego.
I've learned to appreciate Qigong and sitting meditation a lot more.
In specific terms:
I learned the Yang LuChan Taiji form.
I made significant improvements in my understanding of and abilities in I Liq Chaun and appreciate the depth of the art much more.
To that end, I have increased my appreciation of my primary art, Chen-Hunyuan Taiji much much more--specifically the importance of nurturing.
I have improved my Chin Na and sparring skills
I have learned that I don't fit in well with many Tai Chi groups and organizations, and I am quite content with that realization.
I have learned the the Yang LuChan Taiji form is the best Qigong I have ever experienced. I have every good reason to simplify my practice--but I won't be dropping that. It's just that powerful.
To that end, I have learned I am better off being multi-dimensional and not sticking too rigidly to any one system. I just operate better that way--always have.
I have come to appreciate my religious beliefs and realize I need my faith community.
To that end, I have come back around to really valuing silence and simplicity.
Further, I realize the internal need to slow down.
In the past year my Taiji skills have improved. I have trained and practiced a lot.
I have increased my time in meditation and can feel the gains.
A teacher I really looked up to and appreciated passed away.
My mom passed away, and I am still hurting from that. I feel the need to spend some time alone--possibly a retreat.
I am going to spend more time on the healing arts and meditation this year. Following the Chen-Hunyuan tradition, I am placing a higher priority on nurturing and contemplation. As far as my art goes, I will be working more on depth and less on width or breadth. I am also going to engage in the art of subtraction, or practical simplicity; live more through less. And that's about as far as I will go in terms of resolutions or predictions.
I do expect 2012 to be good, to be different. And that's enough for anyone.